Midnight musing (again)

 Good and happy Midnight to everyone!

As a lover of reading, music and writing, I sometimes get into a reading slump, music doesn't feel like it's moving me, as it usually does, and I get writers block, I have just found myself back recently, first reading more and listening to audiobooks, music inspires me to write. It's a good circle. :) 

During the past two years my depression has significantly improved and gotten a lot better <3 

It all started with a nice guy... and nowadays I don't feel so obsessed with a guy, but I do have a lil' crush on someone. No, you can't guess who it might be. It's none of your business! Some things are better left unsaid.

Nowadays I have raised my standards. I am not going to settle.

That's that. No more running around as a headless chicken.

I love music, it has helped me SO much during my life, also playing the piano and singing, dancing and going to concerts. I could never live without music! Same goes for books and reading. I was in a reading slump for YEARS. Now audiobooks help me, it's easier for me to concentrate when I listen while following along in the book, or just listening. I love especially listening to Finnish non-fiction. Also, old favorites and new interesting books (new to me, not necessarily newly published).

I also have progressed emotionally, spiritually and mentally... I am FINALLY an adult! YAY! 

For almost two years haven't been at the mental hospital! :) that's such a wonderful and wonderous thing! I used to need to go at least once every year... Nowadays I look for the solution within my own capacity to help myself... Like I know music helps, reading and writing. Plus, as I said, they go hand in hand!

I also have one cat left: Brianna. Her brother Bisse went to Heaven in March... 

I still cry about it. He was such a special cat. I miss him SO much.

Now I am 45 years old/young. FYI; I do not like or appreciate older men, just a heads up. Older men for means maybe something else than it means for society, church culture and communities. I am sorry, but I am not sorry.

I was told by my old crush that I should not lower my standards, so I won't. 

I love who I love. I want who I want. I am not a piece of trash, even if others think so.

YEAH. 

I listen to the scriptures every day, I pray more, I study gospel things a lot more... I love general conference, especially talks by Dieter F. Uchtdorf. He is such a good man and his speeches always hit home. I also like our prophet a lot: Russell M. Nelson. He is such a good example to us all. He is a doctor, he is highly educated: a surgeon. He took the c*vid vaccine! YES! I really don't like people who make up conspiracy theories, believe in them and don't believe in science. I know God has helped the scientists to find the answers to so many things. I know, some people He has somekind of "other truth" but I know He has inspired all good things here on Earth, things that save lives, things that explain why somethings are the way they are etc. Everything Good comes from Him.

More later!